Today is a tiring, tiring day... These few days oso very tiring.. Like yesterday went to the CIMA head office and I was damn tired and bad mood... Actually most of the talk focused on EQ. I realised that my biggest weakness is that it's very difficult for me to trust someone completely. Maybe I should try to work on it.

Luckily, today we knew that at least the MA coursework has postponed to the week after next. If not, maybe I'm still not at home now.

A lot of things has happened today. Firstly, someone had told mou about the bag we wanted to give him on mon. Spoiled all the surprise.

Then, about half an hour into the lecture, there was no electricity and yet we continued the lecture.

After class, I went to chai foong's hse to do the assignment. Although we did concentrate on trying to finish the report today but in the end, we just managed to draft out the answer.

Today reached home about 9.30 pm... Damn tired... Hate assignments...

Had a good chat with Chia Woon today. I've decided to try my best to be nice to everyone. Now i think about it, I feel I'm actually a very bad person. Well, the past has passed. I should focused on the future. Come on, Kah Mun... You can do it.. Ganbatte....

Sleepover

I seldom take the initiative. Like for example, I would rather let other people to choose to sit beside me rather than me choosing. So, for this Friday, I broke out of the monotony and asked to go to sleep over at pui's house because I heard that her roommate will be going back to her hometown. Although there was a slight change in plan, I still manage to go to pei voon's house for the overnight.

We had dinner together with may n ling also. After dinner, we went to may's house to do our group t-shirt. Although it took a long time, we had fun laughing at the funny designs we came up with. For those who want to see the design. please contact pei voon, ying may or shu ling.

Before we slept, we talked about a lot of things. I learnt a lot about them and although I didn't sleep very well, I do not regret my decision to go to their house. Maybe next time we could have a sleepover with more than 5 people in a room... ;)

Giving up no good???

When I was so fed up till I want to give up, my friends actually show their concern... Some of them sms me... Some msn with me...

Yesterday I told Pei Voon already... And maybe I'm just oversensitive... I could not continue like this anymore...

I won't be trying to avoid Ms. T anymore and asked lkl for help. Let things to happen naturally. If I really have to sit beside her, I will. But I doubt I'll be happy with that... But things don't always happen in your favour. Guess I just have to learn to accept it...

Should I really give up and not trying to be nice to everyone? Even though I say that, I dun really think I can do that...

Too kind???

Sometimes I just wondered am I too kind to my friends and does that make me an easy bully? If i could be a little crueler, I won't be suffering as much as I do now.. If only I can be cruel, I don't have to care about what Yee Hong feels and just leave her alone like what lkl does. If I could be cruel, I dun hav to inform every single person about things that I think is important. If I could be cruel, I dun have to look like a stupid girl and carry all those paper that I photostated for them. If I could be cruel, I won't offer to help them to photostat without cost.

What do I get in return for doing all those things?? Nothing. Maybe just a thank you. But if I'm not in class, they don't notice. They won't help me to take notes. They won't ask me out. They won't offer me when they want to photostat text books.

Sometimes, especially nowadays, I wonder why I try so hard to help these people? Why couldn't I just do my own job and leave them to be. When I wanted to talk to someone, these people are never there. They won't confide in me. Am I trying too hard to be a nice person? If that's wat I get for being nice, maybe I'll just give up one day and just do my own job.