Too kind???

Sometimes I just wondered am I too kind to my friends and does that make me an easy bully? If i could be a little crueler, I won't be suffering as much as I do now.. If only I can be cruel, I don't have to care about what Yee Hong feels and just leave her alone like what lkl does. If I could be cruel, I dun hav to inform every single person about things that I think is important. If I could be cruel, I dun have to look like a stupid girl and carry all those paper that I photostated for them. If I could be cruel, I won't offer to help them to photostat without cost.

What do I get in return for doing all those things?? Nothing. Maybe just a thank you. But if I'm not in class, they don't notice. They won't help me to take notes. They won't ask me out. They won't offer me when they want to photostat text books.

Sometimes, especially nowadays, I wonder why I try so hard to help these people? Why couldn't I just do my own job and leave them to be. When I wanted to talk to someone, these people are never there. They won't confide in me. Am I trying too hard to be a nice person? If that's wat I get for being nice, maybe I'll just give up one day and just do my own job.